it's been a long time since we've talked and I miss you. I miss the time and everything we had. I want you back in my life 'cause it's great having a friend like you.

I know I acted mad and dumb while we were going out but so did you. If I could turn back time I would make things right. I heard some stuff and I let that get to my head. I wasn't mature enough back then to go up to you and talk things out with you. Instead I acted like a little boy by ignoring you when you would try to talk to me. I'm sorry for hurting you.

Well, I don't know if you care now or if you've lost feelings for me... I don't know how you feel. My feelings for you are still the same and memories don't erase, they stay with me.

Now I realize that it's true; you really don't ever know what you've got till you lose it. I lost you and if there was any way I could talk to you again I would, but you seem to have forgotten about me and you'll probably never read this, but this how I feel and I miss you.

I want to thank you for all the love, happiness, the pain and the tears you have brought into my life. I always told you that you came for a reason into my life. And yes, it is true, you have taught me to love unconditionally no matter how painful it was. The love we shared will always be remembered, will always bring that smile in my heart with no regrets. Times spent with you will always be remembered with tears and joy as it was the joyous and tearful part of my life.

You have strengthened my faith, brought me closer to the Lord as I was always afraid to lose you and I hold on to him closely. I never really lost you, did I? I have more than sweet memories because I had you once. I know you loved me well not enough to keep me but enough for the moment. You ruined me for another man although I was not able to do a good job with you - I am more cautious now, wiser.

You hurt me; I can still feel the pain of every word you told me most especially when you weren't sure if you still loved me. You killed me when you said you and I are difficult to happen and I am still dying inside whenever I recall that moment, those words.I know you wanted me to hate you. But I guess I have so much love for you to ever hate you. You made me stronger when you hurt me. I did not say it was good for me to be hurt but it was only because we shared love that I was badly hurt.

It is silly but the tears you brought me cleanse my heart with all the past hurt. I probably still might not be over them but it made me a better person. I still sad when I remember you, still have sleepless nights, still wake up on early morning - times you call me to say I miss you or you love me... I still think of you. I still wish in the end there will be you and me and I still wish you loved me, but I am a better person now, able to understand things, see them not only on my point of view, I could better understand people's emotions now, see how could I ever hate you then. Thanks for bringing out the best in me, for all the joy, for giving me the best thing that ever happened in my life that was you - I know it's not the end for me; it might be a good start to begin my life again. I shouldn't be ever afraid to love again - I only need to be wiser.


In my heart you will always be more than just a sweet memory of the past or the love that was, more than that. I only walked away because you asked me too, because it will make you happy but my heart is never letting you go. That space you filled in will always be there for you. Someone might fill in the empty space and might take some of the space you left behind but there will always be that space in my heart for you even though you have given up on us.

I guess I will always love you. I will always love that simple girl within you, the sweet you, the sensitive you, the affectionate you. And I will always miss the sweet words, your text messages, your admiring glances, your sweet smile, our dinners, the holding hands..
. I will always look back to the places we've been with that special joy in my heart. The time we spent was brief and yes I loved every minute of it and I will always cherish them. It will not only be good to me while it only lasts, as it will always be good, even when it's over.

I thank God you came into my life..