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Its been a long long while i didn't come over this corner to write out something .
Very obviously , when i did write something here , means there's gotta be something wrong with this guy . haha....

Moody recently . Feeling of down and lonely that almost swallowed me.

Glad i got plenty of time to hanging around doing things that i want , doing some artwork for improving and some interesting research of art . But in return , something that gained must have loss behind it. I turned out to be miserably alone in other word ..lonely. sitting in bus alone ,... going to school alone ... sitting in class alone .... walking around alone ... many times eating alone and now ....alone . Its a world full of myself .. i should feel glad about it.. but sometimes ..like now... i just feel empty .question- where is my friends and perhaps room/housemates ?? .. my closest group of friends are not longer here .. And my mates .. They have their own friends and often times they're going back to their home near town .. And there's nothing and no one to blame of but myself . Maybe perhaps i should have blame my home which are at so far away overseas that it's so hard for me to go back,while now others are having family reunion... haha... its a stupid excuses indeed ..

I'm used to be alone...but,..
Suddenly i just loss my reason of getting alone ...

When,..

I want to have a dinner outside , who should i find to eat with?
I want to watch movies at cinema , who want to follow?
I have a plan for an outing , who wants to join?

These questions will never be easy to me .And the answer will always came out to be "myself".
haha... quite sarcastic though..

Artist are always alone right?? I am normal right ?? =)