Countdown!!

After tomorrow !!! after tomorrow!!! after tomorrow my foundation life will be over! 2 weeks of empty holidays !! waiting for my next, "MQA's sem" . Wonder what can i do in these weeks alone in PJ. Well , plenty!! Gotta try some new stuff and change some habit of mine >< . There's gotta be changes, and it have to be.

Deleting Emo ,and pumping some difference.

GOSH !! A lot of things to learn in this freakin world .And i'm gotta master it one by one . Even if i was alone, still believe i can do it. Cause i really like to be in this way. I just can't wait to be free .

double tap

This sem break .. moving house plan canceled + too late for my homecoming flight ticket . gotta lost myself this time ..

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Its been a long long while i didn't come over this corner to write out something .
Very obviously , when i did write something here , means there's gotta be something wrong with this guy . haha....

Moody recently . Feeling of down and lonely that almost swallowed me.

Glad i got plenty of time to hanging around doing things that i want , doing some artwork for improving and some interesting research of art . But in return , something that gained must have loss behind it. I turned out to be miserably alone in other word ..lonely. sitting in bus alone ,... going to school alone ... sitting in class alone .... walking around alone ... many times eating alone and now ....alone . Its a world full of myself .. i should feel glad about it.. but sometimes ..like now... i just feel empty .question- where is my friends and perhaps room/housemates ?? .. my closest group of friends are not longer here .. And my mates .. They have their own friends and often times they're going back to their home near town .. And there's nothing and no one to blame of but myself . Maybe perhaps i should have blame my home which are at so far away overseas that it's so hard for me to go back,while now others are having family reunion... haha... its a stupid excuses indeed ..

I'm used to be alone...but,..
Suddenly i just loss my reason of getting alone ...

When,..

I want to have a dinner outside , who should i find to eat with?
I want to watch movies at cinema , who want to follow?
I have a plan for an outing , who wants to join?

These questions will never be easy to me .And the answer will always came out to be "myself".
haha... quite sarcastic though..

Artist are always alone right?? I am normal right ?? =)

thats why you go away i know..MLTR

thats y you go away - michael learns to rock


Baby wont you tell me why , there's a sadness in your eyes..I don't wanna say goodbye to you ..

love is one big illusion , i should try to forget,

but there is something left in my head

you're the one who set it up ,..now you are the one who make it stop,

I'm the one who's feeling lost ..right now..

Now you want me to forget .,.every little things you say..

But there is something left in my head..

I wont forget the way your kisses ,

The feelings so strong , were lasting for so long , but i'm not the man your heart is missing..

That's why u go away ..i know

sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere ,.. don't know which way to go..

There ain't so much to say now between us..there ain't so much for you , there ain't so much for me..anymore..

a special video made by me..

I met her again..

After a life at petaling jaya , i finished my 2nd semester studies and came back for Chinese New Year. Everytime i came back.. i just cant avoid the truth where my parents getting older and older. Its the pain in my heart whether i am doing the right thing right now.. am i gonna do something for the sake of my family? ..i love them =')

After that i had a visit to my relative houses the first day of the chinese new year, i feel real happy as a big warmth family atmosphere surrounded me.Maybe that is real meaning of this festival.

and the next day i was invited to her open house .. that is where i met her again .At the time i saw her face , i realize that i do miss her a hell lot. i guess she doesn't know how much i miss her these month away from her. Every steps i take in her house and every corner ..it recalls, our memories , it just like a video inside my head.. scene by scene , me and her . And how lovely the feeling was with her . Silly to see that i was so easily satisfied just a minute or moment staying with her .I was just so in love.
About the vow and promises , i will never doubt ..i remember one vow that i was really faith in, "U r my first and last one" i was naive but true , a simple vow..but i truely believed .

Time slipped away and now we are walking different paths. years have passed by; a lot of changes have taken place. I've seen a lot of new faces, I've gone to a lot of different places, but that doesn't mean I don't think of her anymore. I think about her a lot, I think about what could have been if only I had the courage to stand up for what I felt. It could have made a difference. I let her go, so easily